Skylight

i draw a line in my life  singing this is the new way i behave now  & actually live by the shape of that sound  circle in the back of my throat  spinning in my head & on my pillow  telling you things you don’t need to know  letting you know i trust you so much  then i'm looking at you you through the lights  a circle blinking in the tungsten  wondering how i seem to you  forgetting the words i’m singing for you  am i forgetting how it felt?  you were sleeping with your rings on  cardinal wings in the early morning  waking up to a metaphor forming  i draw a line in my skin  i’m pinning down inchoate meaning  mark me right below the ampersand  perforate line dry summer on my own land  then it circulates around town  do i double down because i’m stubborn?  the needle on the phonographic sound  you’re digging it up as soon as it’s drawn down  am i forgetting how it felt?  if you sing along do i remember?  mark this feeling in the simplest shape  let me finally let it fall away  a w a y

i got this feeling a  mile wide  i look at it a little  each side  a portal for to climb inside  how’s it feel in here?  is the water fine?  fine like cloth or like  turpentine?  the pattern where our habits hide  isn’t it lovely  i’ll never hold you  to all you held me to  i wanna talk about  all the ways  every example of  the shapes  we use to communicate  for example when you’re  leaning in  to my armaggeddon  & then you stop  do you also feel the weight of loss?  isn’t it lonely  i’ll never hold ya  the way you held me up

don’t let it get to you you said  well i did  take a rectangle untangle your head  intrepid  would you bet your life on it darling  if i did?  well the way i spent my winter i wonder  how could we commit?  when the long road noise is loud & you can't hear the song go  & i’m out here with no real belief & no hand for me to hold  up in the early morning for no reason again  relistening to your message & i held it in my head  through broke signal like what type of world we wanna live in  do we curl inwards or live long together in forgiveness?  & you said do we bend our lives to it darling?  then we did  if we learn to love ourselves better maybe  we could commit

paterson & leo  are wandering out  & wandering around  in brookdale  at sundown  they're looking for...  well, they're still looking  —here's another  place in our town  —here's a loophole  —here's the steeple  —here's another  under water  —here's our friendship  why i oughtta  why i love you  enough to say it  thank you paterson  thank you leo  thank you paterson  thank you leo

washing windows with angelina  i don't understand anything  violent angles from side to side  how'd you get so tangled up in my life?  how'd you get so caught?  how'd you get so tangled up?  i love you like it's the old days  when i could ask you anything  how'd you get so tangled up in my thinkin?  how'd you get so caught?  how'd you get so tangled up?

warm night before thanksgiving  what do i have to be nervous for?  cuz who am i really beholden to?  i do  hope you wait for me  whoever you are  cuz i've been waiting for you

it's easy enough to lure myself  out of my house if i don’t think about  all my limits i’m on my feet  i’m on my way i'm wandering
  it's easy enough though to lie myself back down  it's simple it's like i just remember how  all my limits've held me back i hold my head  & i let it ask  why  im altogether down  & when will it end now?  it's easy enough to lie to myself  my eye, my carnivore  circling appetite  all my limits i'm on my feet  i'm on my way i'm wandering  why  i'm altogether down  & when will it end now?  i'm wondering why  i'm altogether down  & when will it end now??

suddenly i find  i’ve got darkness on my mind  it's the question mark that keeps me looking  & it's never satisfied  & it's  never what i thought  saying i'm happy when i'm not  no, i got darkness on my mind  leaning out the frame  when it's particulate & grey  i'm perpendicular to my whole being  when i lean a certain way  saying i'm happy when i'm not  finding roaches in the pot  o i got darkness on my mind  some people spend their whole lives looking  for someone who could understand  while meanwhile a lilac blooming  sometimes on the driest land  & i  know it's been a long time coming  i'm angry & i know that's weak  & i'm longing out that open window  for whatever it is i seek  some people spend their whole lives looking  for someone who could understand  & while meanwhile a lilac blooming  sometimes on the driest land  & i  know it's been a long time coming  i’m angry & i know thats weak  so i’m trying not to be so bitter  i’m just looking at it honestly  well i know it's been a long time coming  i'm angry & i know that's weak  & i'm longing out that open window  for whatever it is i seek  some people spend their whole lives looking  for someone who could understand  while meanwhile a lilac blooming  sometimes on the driest land

i move through shadow  i go they go wherever  don’t they come in  whenever i let em  i climb through  the skylight  whatever you’re feeling is alright  let you  let go  whatever you're feeling is natural  low light at dawn  i'll love that song forever  it's a shadow  let me know me better  i climb through  the skylight  whatever you’re feeling is alright  let me  let go  whatever you're feeling is natural  whatever you're feeling is natural  let me let go  let me know me better  i climb through  the skylight  whatever you're feeling is alright  let me  let go  whatever you're feeling is natural  whatever you're feeling is natural

little amulets  along the window  i've got this feeling  like i'll always love you  but i know that feeling  how it moves through  & through me  & it's changing already  then on the ambulance  & out the window  sequence of colors  blue & red & then blue

i wanna be  better to me  the better i do i let it  leave me  the way that i see it  everything begins in your light  your center  so leave your light on!  leave your light on  or leave  i wanna be  better to you  i wanna do much better  & i wanna read  your letters again  i wanna learn you forever  forever!!  so leave your light on!  leave your light on  or leave  leave your light on!  leave your light on  don't leave