Pinegrove - Audiotree Live

i'm out  there's nothing here to care about  what's that sound?  what's that song about?  it's nothing worth me sayin aloud  so then why do i seem to  need to?  why do i seem to  need to?

this is how i spend my life up  singin old songs  what if i waste my life up?  & all my problems  it's so stupid  they're not even problems  it was supposed to snow  & it did for a minute  but there's no distraction now  or we could spend these years up  on the phone  but is that much better?  it was supposed to snow  but it didn't  so there's no excuses now

i was walkin with my neck out  some ways i wish i was  was walkin with my neck out in some ways that i wish that i was  out on the bevel of sound it sounds like everything else  you'll know it when you hear it cuz u know the way my voice felt  ignore my tone & everything i sing i sing for me  ignore the phone on your bed it rings it rings it rings  shirt collar ringin me out & my collar bone got all red  & already severing prose i wrote so i sing instead  i hold you put your neck out tell me the ways you wish you were  keep your confidence sound, your hook my eye my spur  so when i went to hang out, i hung behind your eyes  but my eyes still flicker with doubt  quickly o i cant decide  i'm tapped out  don't it always seem to go that  you could hold it right in your hands collapsing & still not know  (your hands' collapse & still not know)  say what it is  say how it is with everybody i know  i've got no temper for that  i send you this  cadmium red, one for every layer i shed  & i shed one layer for thisss  say what it is  it's so impossible  but if i just say what it is  it tends to sublimate away  when i was looking to drop  my life away  more every year  i shine light on edges i tried to unfeel  but we've gotta do better than that  some sortin out  so i'll be sittin on the outskirts if you wanna talk about it  things in there were just gettin so loud  say what it is  it's so impossible  but i just say what it is  it tends to sublimate away  when i was looking to drop  my life away

do you wanna dance?  fine  but do you remember when  in your living room  when we made some room & moved ourselves around in it?  it's how my heart resumed  i got caught/ you got those caravaggio moves  we had some good ideas but we never left that fucking room  do you wanna talk?  fine  i’ll talk it out with my dad  it's always nice what he says  he’ll have some good advice from something in a book he read  if i did what i wanted then why do i feel so bad?  would you like a drink  while we wait for everything  to get good again?  we’re good at things & so are a lot of our friends  we should forget these setbacks & get back movin again  i dont know what  i’m afraid of  but i’m afraid  one day it all  will fall away  maybe i read that  but still, let’s see  if nothing else it’s an idle curiosity  so would you like that drink?  fine, yea i know. i remember that too  in your living room, right?  when we began to fight but then we both got confused  then we were laughing & crying in awe of the size of the moon do you want to die?  fine you’re right  but i wonder what it feels like  to stop feelin so alive  what if we could wake up in five years & things’d be feelin alright?  i wanna visit the future & dance in a field of light!

washing windows with angelina  i don't understand anything  violent angles from side to side  how'd you get so tangled up in my life?  how'd you get so caught?  how'd you get so tangled up?  i love you like it's the old days  when i could ask you anything  how'd you get so tangled up in my thinkin?  how'd you get so caught?  how'd you get so tangled up?

Hand over hand I’m pulling myself together on this itchy couch again I’d pull you in but I couldn’t help thinking or my mouth was tarpaulin let me start again: I didn’t mean to say so much about my plans so you see my hand (see?) it’s never either/or now stigmata ampersand The morning is the self it’s self evident: a clattering of blinds: a mimetic wind: a sympathetic tremor I’m a tessela of signs. o I close my eyes &: fractal inner rings of varicose resign! coiled dark inside I’ll open my eyes and clear my throat when I know it’s time: AAAAAAAAAAAEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOUU AA OOOO & && &&& &&&& &&&&& &&&&&& &&&&&&& &&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

Rolling on his back like an ocelot crawling on his stomach you make the lids stick together nothing really bugs me out nothing really bugs me. Tightening the slack on the millimeter tape trudging through your stomach I make the walls split forever nothing really bugs me out nothing really bugs me anymore. I've had enough. Now we're on the same page. Circling the gap like you don't know what you hold drying out my knuckles you tucked it between the folds nothing really bugs me out nothing really bugs me. Recycling the cans at the center by the boxcars we've been carving little symbols in the bark nothing really bugs me out nothing really bugs me out. So let it go: there's nothing I could tell you that you don't already know.

so satisfied i said a lot of things tonight  so long aphasia & the ways it kept me hiding  it's not so much exactly all the words i used  it's more that i was somehow down to let them loose  so complicated i cant wait to get explaining  your listening distended out since i've been crying  so long aphasia & the ways it kept me hidden  so long to silent nerves & hesitant oblivion  you came & sent me out unfurling in the street  & i felt unprecedented confidence in speaking  stick around im thinking things'll be alright  newly delivered wont you live with me tonight  something tonight was such a letdown on my pride  it takes a part of me i don't got to take some things in stride  i'd pace around the place so quiet in myself  id wake the next & see my silence went unfelt  just when i thought i had this pattern sorted out  apparently my ventricles are full of doubt  now  nah things go wrong sometimes don't let it freak you out  but if i don't have you by me then i'll go underground!  nah but what you've got was in your reaches all along  plus one day you'll be reaching for me & i'll be gone  to help remind myself I wrote this little song  one day i won't need your love  one day i won't define myself by the one i'm thinkin of  & if one day i won't need it  one day you won't need it